Understanding your Psychic Journey

Learning to understand the "gifts" I have been given has sent me in a different direction then some other gifted people - may be that is why it has taken me longer to develop my God given abilities. I've known I was different from many people, from what I consider an early age, but never knew how to learn, develop, or accept these differences.

I would go to the bookstore and look at the New Age section. I would ponder thru numerous books to see where I fit into this "New Age" thinking. Why was I being given information? I am just a regular person - just an average girl in an average life. What is the purpose and why me?As I browsed thru the books I would look for answers and understanding, but very rarely did I ever find anything to explain the answers. So many psychics have written books about how to enhance aspects of psychic development. Many of the books I placed back on the shelf, because I felt people just wanting to make a buck wrote them. They never explained how they themselves had accomplished a better understanding of their abilities from performing such exercises.

Over the years, I have purchased books, but my choices were made by my gut instinct. As I reflect back the books I did purchase seem to also explain the authors own experiences, in which I could relate.I consider my journey different from many others, in the way I learn or understand my "gifts."I'm not saying others are not right in their development - I'm just different. My differences may also be what others are going thru - they are just not spoken or written about as much. I believe the reason some of us take a different path is we do not comprehend or cannot place the importance to the "meaning" of certain things. The best way for me to explain this is to example Tarot Cards.

For years I have owned Tarot Cards. I searched and did purchase many books on the Tarot, but the books - to me - were very confusing and the information made no sense. Well, maybe they would make sense but they seemed unimportant to me. I tried and tried to get myself to learn the meanings - I became very frustrated with myself because even though I was so drawn to the "Tarot" I could not make myself learn even the basic of meanings. So why was I drawn to something this strongly. Then many years later I realized the Tarot Cards are to me, a physical item allowing me to express my psychic gifts. It was like I needed something tangible to say "ok your not crazy."I have had the same Tarot Cards for many many years! I cannot even tell you what deck it is! LOL Like I said the importance of such things doesn't matter to me. I have learned to look at the cards and certain things pop into my head. What could be important in one reading with a certain card can mean something totally different in another reading. I am probably some Tarot readers’ worst nightmare! Actually, that is not true every reader has their own way of reading and could care less what another reader says. But it just popped into my mind; my sense of humor does that sometimes. Very rarely do I do "Tarot Readings" and if I do I will either just give the information I am given without telling the person what the cards are - if online. The other way I have done it is to give the reading - as I see it. Then I provide the person with the card names and if they want to investigate what they mean - they can. But somehow I doubt those meanings will be beneficial to the person.

To me the "if this then that" in my psychic world does not apply with the general understanding of psychic information. That is why I say I have traveled a different path then many psychics I have had communications with. I respect all those that I speak with and a part of me wishes that I had the background knowledge they have acquired. I just can't seem to go there. I have to accept the path I am given and go forward. I have written this to hopefully help other psychics like myself not to get discourage because they cannot learn in the same aspect as other psychics. Be yourself and follow your gut - you will learn and grow from the information within yourself. Only choose aids that seem important to your journey!

Another Lesson Learned in Psychic Interpretation

Interpretation of Psychic Information can be confusing in itself, but then add what you consider the definition of a reading, vision, note or warning to be. I forget not everyone knows me and therefore, everything I write effects others. I have been offering free readings on a site for about a year and yes I have a following, but I forgot there are always new people on the site who are not familiar with my readings.

I made an error when I put a note on a post. I said this is not a reading, which to me it was not. It was a note or maybe a warning to the individual to pay attention to something she had mentioned. It did not mean the information did not come to me - it just meant this was not really the information she was requesting be read. It was the only information I received and therefore she just needed to note the info incase it became relevant to her situation. Something she may not have realized could come into play in the future. Maybe it won't come about, I can only go by what I am given. I hope for her sake it never comes into play.

I have to look at this situation as a learning experience when dealing with my "gifts." I did apologize to the individual because after she responded I realized it was my error in labeling what I was given. Next time I think I will just type what I am given with no explanation as to what I consider the information to be. Then the person can decide what they feel the information is to them.

I Had an Interesting Meditation

Meditating can help relieve stress on most days! LOL Today, I had an interesting meditation which may actually change my life. Not exactly change it but improve my thoughts. It has been an extremely difficult year in all aspects of my life - except one!

I realized that the area of my life that has not caused me stress is when I use my "gifts" to help people. Even though I may be experiencing enormous stress - I actually feel relief in some ways when I do a reading for someone and they feel better about their situation and decide to go forward with a positive attitude!

So, I am contemplating starting another Blog - and offering what I consider "psychic advice."

Not that I have millions of readers but I do a few followers and hope to expand. I think I will grab the blog name in a few minutes - if it's available. Won't name it now because I have to go check and see if I can get it first. LOL with my luck it will be taken!! Must keep my sense of humor!!!!

I'm more afraid of Life than Death

This realization came to me - maybe yesterday?

My life is such a mess in so many aspects, and then I thought, so many people speak of being afraid of death. I'm not afraid of death; I'm afraid of Life!

Don't get me wrong - I don't want to die. My family is the most important thing to me and to leave my children without a mother, my husband without a wife, or my parents without a daughter - No! But death seems like peace to me, for my beliefs tell me I chose this path for some reason and only in death will I completely understand WHY I would choose such a life!
I guess I just want answers.

Death means returning to a different aspect and not dealing with humans that have caused havoc in my life. No one other than my husband probably knows completely what we have had to deal with in this life, and what we continue to live. It is very scary out there in the world today! We have been bombarded with evil and negativity from so many people. Yet we always are there for others - we try to help everyone and be kind to people - so then why do people always hurt us? It just doesn't make sense. We seem to be a magnet for negative people meaning those who cheat, steal and lie, Why?

So, that is why Life is definitely more scary than Death!

How does a Psychic not Assume?

Not many people know I have "psychic gifts" except all you here online! LOL Many people think psychic gifts are great, but if they themselves do not possess such psychic gifts, they are unable to understand exactly how they come to you. So, I figure the last sentence there just confused at least half my readers! Sorry.

Interpreting information received psychically can be very confusing. I am experiencing one of those confused moments now. As I was trying to explain what I was trying to figure out to my sister, I came to realize I must not be the only psychic person this happens to. I used to really admire a famous psychic Sylvia Brown. Then it seemed she was always wrong - so much negativity spoken about her errors - but then it just hit me. What if she too is trying to interpret information and assuming her interpretation is correct. She then makes these predictions on interpretation of something she is shown. It is not that she might not really be psychic, it is she is assuming what she is given means what she initially thought from the picture she was shown.

How does a psychic not assume? I don't know the answer to this question. I know when I am giving a reading, I try to keep myself from doing such by trying to describe what I see instead of giving my assumption, because I don't know the people. But when I am given a sign for myself, in picture form, then how do I keep from assuming my interpretation is correct? Especially when the picture given is not anything I personally know about.

For instance, I ask for a sign the information I just received is actual. I am shown a picture of a presidential candidate for the 2008 election with a picture of a woman. (now you would need to know politics is not my thing, at all!) I don't keep up with politics at all. So, in my brain I assume, "OK, if he chooses this woman as his running mate then the information I was given, will happen"
But in reality did I assume that woman to be his running mate, or was it that he was considering her or a woman as his running mate, or was the woman shown somehow related to the election? How am I to know? This picture was given to me many months before he chose his running mate, and me not being political at all, did not even know when they would be picking running mates! So why was I being given this information as a sign when it is months away?

This confusion and revelation comes into play now because as some of you know McCain chose his running mate. Yes it was a woman - no it was not the woman I think I saw. But he did choose a woman, which I didn't think he would - but like I said I don't keep up with such things. I did do a little research today cause I'm confused. I did see some people had this woman in the running for VP, but he picked a different woman. So does it mean what I was given does not come to pass? Then why give me the information to begin with? And did I misinterpret the picture and maybe in actuality it was the opponents wife, I actually saw? If that was the case, then what now?

So the question I pose to everyone: "How does a Psychic not Assume" when given information thru pictures?

Gosh I am still alive!

Things have been kinda crazy around here lately! But, we are all still breathing. We have food on the table - so at this point we continue to live.

Had a cup of coffee with Bart yesterday - for those of you that know me - he is my guide. I have been so stressed lately, hadn't had time to stop and meditate. Well, went pretty well - very informative in some aspects and confusing in others. It seems in a sense I am going in the right direction - even though life seems very upsetting. I am supposed to be learning these lessons to help me in the future. Gosh, lessons are hard sometimes. I am not sure why I choose to learn these, but only God knows. I guess when I go back to heaven, I will understand and hopefully have learned - so I don't have to repeat these lessons!! OMG

The Life of an Empath

The life of an Empath can be very draining! Not sure if many of you know what an Empath is - but we feel others emotions and physical pain. I am still trying to understand all of it myself, as I live it! I had a few experiences now that tell me 100 % that I am an Empath. I have learned somewhat to protect myself from a lot of outside influences that effect me emotionally and physically, but some times it just sneaks up on me.


I think that the combination of being an Empath and a Medium make things a little more confusing. The reason being is that if a spirit tries to contact me I can also feel what they want me to feel. Last night around 10pm all of a sudden I got information (from where I don't know) about a suicide attempt involving a car, garage and carbon monoxide. The information came to me first, then I started getting a dull head ache and sick to my stomach.


I had looked at a picture from a reading request and was hoping that it was that person whom had already passed and not someone needing my help now! Unfortunately, it was not the person whom was already deceased, so now it is a waiting game to find out who or why I was getting this information. I hate these feelings when you just don't get enough information to help someone.


I guess I should feel good that I have not received any phone calls with bad news yet. I will continue to hope it was a spirit that will try to contact me again.


So everyone be nice to me today! The life of an Empath is not always easy.