Showing posts with label journey. Show all posts
Showing posts with label journey. Show all posts

Sunday, November 16, 2008

My Psychic Journey Involving Missing Persons Continues

My psychic journey involving missing person’s cases continues. I was going to do it as one blog entry, but decided it would have been too long for anyone to read! LOL I’m not implying my reader’s have a short attention span, just it is a separate case.

While contemplating the reasons I am given information which I cannot do anything with, I was scanning thru a forum on missing persons. Yeah, you would think I would know better – but for some reason I am being drawn in this direction – so I followed.

I was lead to a case. As soon as I clicked the button – there was a photo! Gosh, those who know me realize I am a photo reader. I began getting feelings, ASAP! What was I supposed to do – just stop! No not me.

So I went with the flow. Only God knows why. I noted what I was receiving. But then I went back to the forum and realized – on this case there was no request for psychic visions or dreams, and the mother of the missing person is a member of the forum. Oh, now I had a dilemma. A learning experience I had to process. It made me really stop and think about “missing persons” and their families. I cannot give or offer any visions to families that have not requested such. Who am I to assume I have the correct information, only God knows the answers.

So I went back to my notes and put a comment about learning to provide information to families, only if requested to do so. For the information may not be correct. I could have accidentally misinterpreted symbolism I was receiving. I could not post this information anywhere. Someone reading the information may too assume things that are not really said or given. For example: Say I heard a gunshot – that does not necessarily mean the person was shot. All it would mean is a gun was fired at some point. See it is very hard to keep yourself from assuming things when you are given symbols or sounds, etc.

Well, I later went back to the forum – after learning the moral lesson of not posting my vision – because it was not requested. Low and behold a new topic was posted from the mother of the missing person. Yup, requesting information via visions and dreams! Sometimes I think I am gonna lose my mind. See what I mean – I keep being lead in this direction – something always happens. I just don’t know what to do?

I did message the mother because I took it as a sign. I did not give her the reading information. What I did do is explain what happened and tried to explain to her that many psychics receive a lot of information – such as in another missing persons case and sometimes we are right and sometimes we are wrong. Please remember this when and if psychics do start sending her information. We are only human and God is the only one that knows the answers and will reveal them when he feels it is the right time.

She did message me back and I sent her some of the reading – with a continued request to remember I am only human. The information I did receive – I do not feel will help in finding her loved one, but maybe some of it would make sense to her. I let her know that I will continue to pray for her daughter and entire family.

So my journey continues to where I have no clue. I figure one day God will explain to me why I am given this information and what in the heck I am supposed to do with it! Until then I continue on my path.

Reflections of a Psychic - Missing Person Case

My journey as a psychic seems to take many paths that cause me to reflect on so much more then just the readings themselves. Trying to understand why I go in different directions with my readings and then questioning, "why I am given this information?" For many years I have wanted to be able to help people with the "gifts" I have been given. I could never figure out how to actually help.

Thru my past experiences this year, I seem to be heading down the path of working with Law Enforcement in solving cases. If you follow my blog, you can see this connection from past blogs. But, I have been really confused as to how to follow this in actual life.

Well, one case struck me and so I did try to connect with the missing person. I did this on several occasions over the past month. I received some rather disturbing information - but nothing that would assist in the finding of the person, until a few days ago.

The information I received - was a bit detailed - but still not an exact location - which is needed by the police to actually find the person. I knew there was no way I would know the area or the street name I was given! This caused me much anxiety because what could I do with this information? Thank goodness my husband and girls accept me as I am! My husband told me to call the police department and provide them with what I had been given. He too knew I could not come up with this information on my own. I showed him on mapquest and he said to let them know. I then showed my two oldest girls and they too said - tell them mom.Easier said then done.

For me this would be a giant step in letting the "outside" world know I am different. Would they think I was a crackpot? My family's response was "Who cares what other people think" Gosh, they are right - but I have always felt the need to protect my family from the skeptics.

So, like it seems thousands of psychics have - I emailed the information I was given to the appropriate law enforcement agency.No response from Law Enforcement. I'm not surprised - who am I to them. I’m just a middle-aged lady who has given them yet another psychic tip. Yes, I know I may not be right about where the body is - why would I be given the location?Can I go out and search this location myself? No, I cannot go searching around private property. I’m liable to get myself shot!

So, another thing in my life that I have to just put in God's hands. I have to accept, if God wants this person found and I have been given the information, then he will lead the police department to me from my email or he will let the searchers find her in another way. It is God who is the only one in control of the situation. We are all here to learn lessons and so it is just a waiting game until all involved realize what they have to learn.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Meeting My Old Friend and Psychic!

My psychic journey has taken me here and there and everywhere! This phase of my life is full of so much turmoil and psychic adventure. As I was packing up some belongings in my home, I kept coming across an old friend and psychic's phone number. I also found a journal which stated I met her in 1995! She had done a few readings for me between 1995 and 1998.


As I reviewed a couple of readings, she had been right on - even though some of them took years to come true. It was amazing. I picked up the phone and called the number I kept finding. I really didn't expect her to answer, she was older when I first met her. I was shocked when she answered the phone. I told her my name and she remembered me! Also, asked about a couple of relatives of mine!


We scheduled to meet the following Thursday. I told her I had to go out of town for a few days and would be back before Thursday. Unfortunately, a few minutes after I spoke with her we received the upsetting news, our friend had been shot. I did go out of town - but to a different location - to be with our friend.


I came home to be with the kids - and was able to make my meeting too. I really needed to see her since all this other tragedy had occurred.


It was great to see her - she is as wonderful as ever! She had told me years ago, I was very psychic. At that time I was experiencing some things - visions of accidents - but nothing more. I told her things were exploding for me in a number of psychic related areas and I was not sure how to use these to help people.


She did about 5 readings on me and people associated with me. It was very enlightening and interesting. She uses many different Tarot card decks for her readings. It seems the most obvious thing in all these readings is - I am psychic! LOL


During different readings it always came up that I am a Healer! She had no idea of the situation with my friend at this point. But she asked me who was having terrible difficulty breathing? My friend was on a ventilator. So I did acknowledge a friend on a ventilator. She then went on to say you are trying to Heal him! "You caught me!" Yes, he would be my first ever try at healing. I explained I have tried for years to understand Reiki, but it just doesn't make sense to me. She told me not to bother going that route, I don't need to. I was chosen to "heal" and people pay thousands of dollars to be able to do what you can do naturally! Wow. She said to continue what I was doing and that I was helping him. This of course made me feel a lot better.


During the numerous readings - healing was always shown in the cards. She was overwhelmed by the continuous reference to healing. She also was getting the medium and prophecy. She also saw and felt I would use my gifts to help find missing children. My friend told me to hold a piece of clothing of the missing child and see if I could pick up on anything. Sounds interesting, but how do you ask a parent for a piece of a missing child's clothing. See that is where I get lost!


I want to be able to help people with my gifts, but am still unsure as to how or what direction to go. She also let me know it is ok to charge for your time associated with your gift. You have to pay your bills too she said. Donating time is a good thing to do when you can.


During the general reading she told me she sees me doing something with computers. I don't know computers much except to get on here and write - she says that may be exactly how you are to use your gift. People will get to know you and feel who you are. You were choosen - Just listen to your guides. Oh my I guess I should start that other Blog they were telling me to do!


As she was reading for my husband - Our friend kept showing up in the cards so she decided to do a reading on him. She said your friend is not able to talk at this time, but you are helping him. He is in a very good hospital, (which he is in one of the top trauma centers in the US) She said if he feels he will be a burden - he will give up. He is fighting - getting better - I am his Channel. He has enemies! That is when I told her he had been shot - six times! I would have never thought he would have any enemies - he is one of the most caring and giving people I know. But if you knew the whole story - then maybe him having an unknown enemy would make what happened to him make more sense.


Well the other stuff is more on the personal nature. (Sis, I'll email you that stuff.) But what I really have taken from visiting her is; I am psychic and was chosen to lead a life involving my gifts. I will now try to move forward on this journey - my guides will lead and show me the way - I just need to work on my confidence and put myself out there and not worry about what other people think of me!


Thank you my dear friend

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Not Sure Where to Start or Where I Left Off!

My life has been crazy for quite a while - going in so many directions. It has caused me to reflect on numerous events and thoughts throughout my life.



We have been living in this house for about 9 years gosh this month! It appears we must sell our home due to our unforseen financial situation. Yes it is difficult but the house is a material object - and family is more important than things. My beliefs tell me things happen for a reason, I just can't seem to figure out why. Our financial situtation is due to my husband's partner - not being honest and straight forward. So a lesson learned - do not go into partnerships! All people are not as they want you to believe.



We decided it would be easier to sell our home if most of our items were already packed and out of the way. I began packing up all my collections and papers I have accumulated in my life. Boy, it's amazing what I have come across in this sort of cleansing of my home. It seemed everytime I opened a box or drawer - there was something related to my psychic journey! I look at the dates on notes of visions or dreams and wow I really have been on this journey my entire life!



My experiences and gifts have been going in full force for gosh longer then I realized myself, living it everyday you become accustomed to it. Reflecting back with these notes and items it really brings things to light. Wow - this is the path I was to take - but I still don't understand what I am to do with these gifts.



As I plundered through - I kept coming to a name and phone number of an old friend. I really was unsure if this person was still alive - since she was an older woman when I met her in 1995! I haven't seen her in 10+ years! But I grabbed my phone and dialed the number - she picked up! She is alive and well and still living in the same place! WOW.



Of course, with the direction I have been heading, yes she is a psychic! LOL She remembered me and we chatted for a few minutes. It was amamzing all she remembered about me? Guess not if you think about it - but I was still amazed. We scheduled a time to meet the next week. I was so excited I went and told my husband. As I told him - he was out packing the garage - he said wait a second I have David's readings (my now deceased Brother in Law)! Yes and one was done by my friend I just called!



A few minutes after that - life hit us hard again??? I just can not understand what is going on in my universe! We received a phone call that my husband's best friend (whom my children call uncle) had been shot 3 times and airlifted to a trauma center 4 hours away from us.



I am not sure which direction I am going in anymore. These are just a couple examples of my life - I should write a book. The only problem is no one would believe it was true! All these problems in one way or another lead to ONE person, the partner! I just don't understand WHY? Yes even the shooting is related. Its a long story - that is why I say a book!



I did come back in town and did see my friend. I will write another post shortly and let you know how our connection went!

Sunday, September 7, 2008

We Make Our Own Everyday Miracles

The title may seem a bit weird, but I was not sure how to express what I was wanting to write about. Things have been very difficult for the past year - now even more so. But I try to keep my children's happiness in mind as we live this life. It came to me the other day while meditating "We make our own miracles." At the time, I wasn't really sure of the meaning. But today, and reflecting back on the past few weeks, I now understand better.

I'll start with today. Money is extremely tight but one of my daughters was invited to the homecoming dance. This is her first dance with a date and I know she really needed to go. We went shopping and while she was trying on a bunch of dresses, I prayed we would find one she liked and it would be very affordable. She didn't care for any she tried on and as she was dressing again, I told her I would go and see if maybe we missed something. We found a nice black dress in her size! How we missed it I couldn't tell you.

She tried it on and it looked great! She told me the price, $59.99 and I was like ok, then she said but it's half off! Great! While she redressed I headed to the shoe department to see what they had available. Looking thru the whole department - I told her, "Sorry, they do not have anything." She told me I'm gonna keep looking. She got to the back of the store and found a perfect looking shoe to compliment her dress, but it was too small. We about gave up then on the last row at the back was the perfect shoe in her size! You guessed it 70 % off! Great. Then a voice over the rack said, "there is an extra 40% off of that - the shoes will be $6.30!" Wow and they matched the dress exactly!

So, heading to the register - planning on paying $36.30 for the entire outfit! We were so proud of ourselves! The cashier rings up the purchase and I about fell over! She said the total is $18.30! Yes, for the great dress and perfect shoes for homecoming! Wow - a miracle. Maybe not the kind of miracle we all think about - but in itself a miracle in our lives right now!

If we had given up and not followed our gut, we would have left without the perfect dress and shoes!

Understanding your Psychic Journey

Learning to understand the "gifts" I have been given has sent me in a different direction then some other gifted people - may be that is why it has taken me longer to develop my God given abilities. I've known I was different from many people, from what I consider an early age, but never knew how to learn, develop, or accept these differences.

I would go to the bookstore and look at the New Age section. I would ponder thru numerous books to see where I fit into this "New Age" thinking. Why was I being given information? I am just a regular person - just an average girl in an average life. What is the purpose and why me?As I browsed thru the books I would look for answers and understanding, but very rarely did I ever find anything to explain the answers. So many psychics have written books about how to enhance aspects of psychic development. Many of the books I placed back on the shelf, because I felt people just wanting to make a buck wrote them. They never explained how they themselves had accomplished a better understanding of their abilities from performing such exercises.

Over the years, I have purchased books, but my choices were made by my gut instinct. As I reflect back the books I did purchase seem to also explain the authors own experiences, in which I could relate.I consider my journey different from many others, in the way I learn or understand my "gifts."I'm not saying others are not right in their development - I'm just different. My differences may also be what others are going thru - they are just not spoken or written about as much. I believe the reason some of us take a different path is we do not comprehend or cannot place the importance to the "meaning" of certain things. The best way for me to explain this is to example Tarot Cards.

For years I have owned Tarot Cards. I searched and did purchase many books on the Tarot, but the books - to me - were very confusing and the information made no sense. Well, maybe they would make sense but they seemed unimportant to me. I tried and tried to get myself to learn the meanings - I became very frustrated with myself because even though I was so drawn to the "Tarot" I could not make myself learn even the basic of meanings. So why was I drawn to something this strongly. Then many years later I realized the Tarot Cards are to me, a physical item allowing me to express my psychic gifts. It was like I needed something tangible to say "ok your not crazy."I have had the same Tarot Cards for many many years! I cannot even tell you what deck it is! LOL Like I said the importance of such things doesn't matter to me. I have learned to look at the cards and certain things pop into my head. What could be important in one reading with a certain card can mean something totally different in another reading. I am probably some Tarot readers’ worst nightmare! Actually, that is not true every reader has their own way of reading and could care less what another reader says. But it just popped into my mind; my sense of humor does that sometimes. Very rarely do I do "Tarot Readings" and if I do I will either just give the information I am given without telling the person what the cards are - if online. The other way I have done it is to give the reading - as I see it. Then I provide the person with the card names and if they want to investigate what they mean - they can. But somehow I doubt those meanings will be beneficial to the person.

To me the "if this then that" in my psychic world does not apply with the general understanding of psychic information. That is why I say I have traveled a different path then many psychics I have had communications with. I respect all those that I speak with and a part of me wishes that I had the background knowledge they have acquired. I just can't seem to go there. I have to accept the path I am given and go forward. I have written this to hopefully help other psychics like myself not to get discourage because they cannot learn in the same aspect as other psychics. Be yourself and follow your gut - you will learn and grow from the information within yourself. Only choose aids that seem important to your journey!