Gosh here are a couple more messages I just received! I'm kinda a little nervous about the last one! But it definitely made me stop and think. I don't consider myself flirting with disaster, I am a very quiet and good person. I had made a decision and was gonna do something I felt would kinda give the person whom is causing havoc in my life a little phone grief. But I guess I better rethink that!!!
I’m searching for answers I may not find
They are hidden in this life of mine
To whom the answers lie are few
For only god can decide what to do
If you live your life among the good
You are sure to reap what is good
But lacking the abilities to decide what’s right
Will surely send you into strife.
Stop and think before you do
Because the outcome could confuse you
You think your headed in the right direction
But in reality there is a question?
Your life is going too fast to comprehend what is really best
You have to stop and think it twice
Or things might happen not so nice.
Stop flirting with disaster.
Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts
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Thursday, October 16, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
Why are these popping in My Mind?
Ok now I am really confused. I was sitting here again and these poetry things keep popping in my mind. These were written in seconds?? Any ideas?
As life passes us by we must presume all is not a miracle but life in bloom
To take a path that is unknown our fears will be swallowed up against the doom
To those that figure all is well hopefully they don’t stumble in the well
The well of life abundant to some is an endless pit to those unknown
So give to thee and receive from none the gift of life is a conundrum
To pass life by is all but done
Our earthly bodies belong to none
For what we learn is ours to keep
The good Lord knows what we shall reap
It is only he that can provide
The information that we hide
We know not why we choose this life
But a lesson learned will suffice
As life passes us by we must presume all is not a miracle but life in bloom
To take a path that is unknown our fears will be swallowed up against the doom
To those that figure all is well hopefully they don’t stumble in the well
The well of life abundant to some is an endless pit to those unknown
So give to thee and receive from none the gift of life is a conundrum
To pass life by is all but done
Our earthly bodies belong to none
For what we learn is ours to keep
The good Lord knows what we shall reap
It is only he that can provide
The information that we hide
We know not why we choose this life
But a lesson learned will suffice
Life is Like a Butterfly
I was just sitting here about to type a message to someone and this popped into my mind. I do not know why? So I just wrote it down????? Maybe I'm just really tired from all that life seems to be throwing my way, and I love Butterflies! LOL
Life is like a butterfly
Always flittering around
All I ask is God’s help
In showing me where to land.
Life goes by in a flash
My wings flapping so
Destined to fly again
Not exactly sure where to go
If only Life could be so simple
A flitter and a flap
Guided by the hands of God
To the perfect spot to Nap.
Life is like a butterfly
Always flittering around
All I ask is God’s help
In showing me where to land.
Life goes by in a flash
My wings flapping so
Destined to fly again
Not exactly sure where to go
If only Life could be so simple
A flitter and a flap
Guided by the hands of God
To the perfect spot to Nap.
Meeting My Old Friend and Psychic!
My psychic journey has taken me here and there and everywhere! This phase of my life is full of so much turmoil and psychic adventure. As I was packing up some belongings in my home, I kept coming across an old friend and psychic's phone number. I also found a journal which stated I met her in 1995! She had done a few readings for me between 1995 and 1998.
As I reviewed a couple of readings, she had been right on - even though some of them took years to come true. It was amazing. I picked up the phone and called the number I kept finding. I really didn't expect her to answer, she was older when I first met her. I was shocked when she answered the phone. I told her my name and she remembered me! Also, asked about a couple of relatives of mine!
We scheduled to meet the following Thursday. I told her I had to go out of town for a few days and would be back before Thursday. Unfortunately, a few minutes after I spoke with her we received the upsetting news, our friend had been shot. I did go out of town - but to a different location - to be with our friend.
I came home to be with the kids - and was able to make my meeting too. I really needed to see her since all this other tragedy had occurred.
It was great to see her - she is as wonderful as ever! She had told me years ago, I was very psychic. At that time I was experiencing some things - visions of accidents - but nothing more. I told her things were exploding for me in a number of psychic related areas and I was not sure how to use these to help people.
She did about 5 readings on me and people associated with me. It was very enlightening and interesting. She uses many different Tarot card decks for her readings. It seems the most obvious thing in all these readings is - I am psychic! LOL
During different readings it always came up that I am a Healer! She had no idea of the situation with my friend at this point. But she asked me who was having terrible difficulty breathing? My friend was on a ventilator. So I did acknowledge a friend on a ventilator. She then went on to say you are trying to Heal him! "You caught me!" Yes, he would be my first ever try at healing. I explained I have tried for years to understand Reiki, but it just doesn't make sense to me. She told me not to bother going that route, I don't need to. I was chosen to "heal" and people pay thousands of dollars to be able to do what you can do naturally! Wow. She said to continue what I was doing and that I was helping him. This of course made me feel a lot better.
During the numerous readings - healing was always shown in the cards. She was overwhelmed by the continuous reference to healing. She also was getting the medium and prophecy. She also saw and felt I would use my gifts to help find missing children. My friend told me to hold a piece of clothing of the missing child and see if I could pick up on anything. Sounds interesting, but how do you ask a parent for a piece of a missing child's clothing. See that is where I get lost!
I want to be able to help people with my gifts, but am still unsure as to how or what direction to go. She also let me know it is ok to charge for your time associated with your gift. You have to pay your bills too she said. Donating time is a good thing to do when you can.
During the general reading she told me she sees me doing something with computers. I don't know computers much except to get on here and write - she says that may be exactly how you are to use your gift. People will get to know you and feel who you are. You were choosen - Just listen to your guides. Oh my I guess I should start that other Blog they were telling me to do!
As she was reading for my husband - Our friend kept showing up in the cards so she decided to do a reading on him. She said your friend is not able to talk at this time, but you are helping him. He is in a very good hospital, (which he is in one of the top trauma centers in the US) She said if he feels he will be a burden - he will give up. He is fighting - getting better - I am his Channel. He has enemies! That is when I told her he had been shot - six times! I would have never thought he would have any enemies - he is one of the most caring and giving people I know. But if you knew the whole story - then maybe him having an unknown enemy would make what happened to him make more sense.
Well the other stuff is more on the personal nature. (Sis, I'll email you that stuff.) But what I really have taken from visiting her is; I am psychic and was chosen to lead a life involving my gifts. I will now try to move forward on this journey - my guides will lead and show me the way - I just need to work on my confidence and put myself out there and not worry about what other people think of me!
Thank you my dear friend
As I reviewed a couple of readings, she had been right on - even though some of them took years to come true. It was amazing. I picked up the phone and called the number I kept finding. I really didn't expect her to answer, she was older when I first met her. I was shocked when she answered the phone. I told her my name and she remembered me! Also, asked about a couple of relatives of mine!
We scheduled to meet the following Thursday. I told her I had to go out of town for a few days and would be back before Thursday. Unfortunately, a few minutes after I spoke with her we received the upsetting news, our friend had been shot. I did go out of town - but to a different location - to be with our friend.
I came home to be with the kids - and was able to make my meeting too. I really needed to see her since all this other tragedy had occurred.
It was great to see her - she is as wonderful as ever! She had told me years ago, I was very psychic. At that time I was experiencing some things - visions of accidents - but nothing more. I told her things were exploding for me in a number of psychic related areas and I was not sure how to use these to help people.
She did about 5 readings on me and people associated with me. It was very enlightening and interesting. She uses many different Tarot card decks for her readings. It seems the most obvious thing in all these readings is - I am psychic! LOL
During different readings it always came up that I am a Healer! She had no idea of the situation with my friend at this point. But she asked me who was having terrible difficulty breathing? My friend was on a ventilator. So I did acknowledge a friend on a ventilator. She then went on to say you are trying to Heal him! "You caught me!" Yes, he would be my first ever try at healing. I explained I have tried for years to understand Reiki, but it just doesn't make sense to me. She told me not to bother going that route, I don't need to. I was chosen to "heal" and people pay thousands of dollars to be able to do what you can do naturally! Wow. She said to continue what I was doing and that I was helping him. This of course made me feel a lot better.
During the numerous readings - healing was always shown in the cards. She was overwhelmed by the continuous reference to healing. She also was getting the medium and prophecy. She also saw and felt I would use my gifts to help find missing children. My friend told me to hold a piece of clothing of the missing child and see if I could pick up on anything. Sounds interesting, but how do you ask a parent for a piece of a missing child's clothing. See that is where I get lost!
I want to be able to help people with my gifts, but am still unsure as to how or what direction to go. She also let me know it is ok to charge for your time associated with your gift. You have to pay your bills too she said. Donating time is a good thing to do when you can.
During the general reading she told me she sees me doing something with computers. I don't know computers much except to get on here and write - she says that may be exactly how you are to use your gift. People will get to know you and feel who you are. You were choosen - Just listen to your guides. Oh my I guess I should start that other Blog they were telling me to do!
As she was reading for my husband - Our friend kept showing up in the cards so she decided to do a reading on him. She said your friend is not able to talk at this time, but you are helping him. He is in a very good hospital, (which he is in one of the top trauma centers in the US) She said if he feels he will be a burden - he will give up. He is fighting - getting better - I am his Channel. He has enemies! That is when I told her he had been shot - six times! I would have never thought he would have any enemies - he is one of the most caring and giving people I know. But if you knew the whole story - then maybe him having an unknown enemy would make what happened to him make more sense.
Well the other stuff is more on the personal nature. (Sis, I'll email you that stuff.) But what I really have taken from visiting her is; I am psychic and was chosen to lead a life involving my gifts. I will now try to move forward on this journey - my guides will lead and show me the way - I just need to work on my confidence and put myself out there and not worry about what other people think of me!
Thank you my dear friend
Wow! Pulled a Card for the Day
Well, I was going to put my Tarot cards away from my adventures with the children last night - when I decided to ask for a card to guide me thru today.
It sure put a smile on my face when it was the "Justice" card. I hope it continues to be a positive day - and justice does prevail!
I hope the "evil" that attacked our friend and family over the past year will somehow receive what is deserved.
Any positive energy you could send our way would be very much appreciated.
It sure put a smile on my face when it was the "Justice" card. I hope it continues to be a positive day - and justice does prevail!
I hope the "evil" that attacked our friend and family over the past year will somehow receive what is deserved.
Any positive energy you could send our way would be very much appreciated.
Now I Know Why October 13th is a Special Day!
I have been wondering all morning why this date seems to be a special date. I even asked my oldest daughter if she knew why. I couldn't think of anyones birthday or anniversary on this date. I was searching my brain to figure it out - it was driving me crazy! (Not unusual for me!)
Then my husband called! Our dear friend that was shot six times on October 1, 2008; is now breathing on his own!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What a wonderful day October 13, 2008 is!
Then my husband called! Our dear friend that was shot six times on October 1, 2008; is now breathing on his own!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What a wonderful day October 13, 2008 is!
I Laughed So Hard I Cried!
Oh my, I laughed so hard last night I cried! I guess another way to look at psychic humor. As I sit here to try and type this, I can not help but let a giggle escape.
A couple of my girls started asking about psychic things and if I could do a reading on one of their boyfriends. He was there too. I explained, I have never actually done a live reading. I do my readings via photos, but had just started reading a book I was given, which tries to explain live readings. Of course the idea of all three of them staring at me - I didnt think I could do it.
I offered to get out my Tarot cards and give that a try. I explained that being I am their mom, I kinda know them to well and it might effect how I read the cards. It is just like when I try to read for myself. But I did do a three card reading on each of them and the cards did seem to fit.
I know not funny yet! LOL You know how one thing leads to another. We continued to talk about psychic gifts and medium readings that I also do. One of the girls asked if I could reach her Uncle. She went and got a picture and I tried looking at it - but with everyone looking at me I could not do anything.
They were asking a bunch of questions and then she asked if I could reach her father. I felt that he was there with us and tried to communicate. We tried one experiment but it didnt work. So they wanted me to ask him to do something so they would know that he was around. My brother in law, (one's father) has a tendency to mess with electrical things. So I asked him to do something so the girls would know he was around. His daughter was so trying to convince me she would not be scared. So I went ahead with it, but I asked him to do something that would not scare the crap out of them, yet they would know something happened. As I was asking my other girl - said oh! The lights flickered. But I had my eyes closed and the others were looking down so she was the only one that saw.
They really wanted to see something - but since I am so used to doing this in privacy, I went into the bedroom (saying I had to use the bathroom) and asked him to do something now so they would know. As I walk back out into the kitchen they said the lights just flickered. I said "yes" and made a motion. She automatically said - you asked him to do that while you were in there didnt you? Caught! LOL
We continue with our psychic talking and about how I think things happen. She really wanted more. They wanted him to turn on the oven. I'm like I have never asked for anyone to do such things like that. So I asked him to do something electrical within the next 20 minutes for them to have some proof. Well, it was 10:35 and my alarm clock went off! This seems to be a way he communicates with me alot. So they look at me and I said ok, there he is. My alarm clock is not set! Go look at it! They would not go without me! LOL We got in there and as I said the alarm clock was not set!
I guess they were on a roll about communicating with him. Well, the boyfriend is still a skeptic, so I was sitting at the table wishing his phone would ring and scare the crap out of him. All of a sudden I hear a phone ring - but it's not any of ours. We guessed it must have been the tv in the other room. So I said - "Oh well, I asked him to do "boyfriends" phone so it would convince him. Then one of the girls said, "oh come on just do something funny!" Two seconds later, my phone rings! OMG the look of terror on her face and she screamed so loud I'm surprised she didnt wake up the others in the house. And of course her screaming caused the other one to scream as a reaction.! I was laughing so hard I had tears streaming down my face!
As I try to type this I am beginning to cry with laughter again. I can just picture her face. I'm thinking to myself - Oh yeah, she's not scared but the look of terror on her face was unbelievable! I was laughing so hard when I answered the phone, my husband could not understand what I was saying. Oh I needed that laugh!
I think that will be one of those memories they will have forever - which will be spoken of for years to come! I know it's probably one of those - you had to be there moments - but I am sure glad I was there!
A couple of my girls started asking about psychic things and if I could do a reading on one of their boyfriends. He was there too. I explained, I have never actually done a live reading. I do my readings via photos, but had just started reading a book I was given, which tries to explain live readings. Of course the idea of all three of them staring at me - I didnt think I could do it.
I offered to get out my Tarot cards and give that a try. I explained that being I am their mom, I kinda know them to well and it might effect how I read the cards. It is just like when I try to read for myself. But I did do a three card reading on each of them and the cards did seem to fit.
I know not funny yet! LOL You know how one thing leads to another. We continued to talk about psychic gifts and medium readings that I also do. One of the girls asked if I could reach her Uncle. She went and got a picture and I tried looking at it - but with everyone looking at me I could not do anything.
They were asking a bunch of questions and then she asked if I could reach her father. I felt that he was there with us and tried to communicate. We tried one experiment but it didnt work. So they wanted me to ask him to do something so they would know that he was around. My brother in law, (one's father) has a tendency to mess with electrical things. So I asked him to do something so the girls would know he was around. His daughter was so trying to convince me she would not be scared. So I went ahead with it, but I asked him to do something that would not scare the crap out of them, yet they would know something happened. As I was asking my other girl - said oh! The lights flickered. But I had my eyes closed and the others were looking down so she was the only one that saw.
They really wanted to see something - but since I am so used to doing this in privacy, I went into the bedroom (saying I had to use the bathroom) and asked him to do something now so they would know. As I walk back out into the kitchen they said the lights just flickered. I said "yes" and made a motion. She automatically said - you asked him to do that while you were in there didnt you? Caught! LOL
We continue with our psychic talking and about how I think things happen. She really wanted more. They wanted him to turn on the oven. I'm like I have never asked for anyone to do such things like that. So I asked him to do something electrical within the next 20 minutes for them to have some proof. Well, it was 10:35 and my alarm clock went off! This seems to be a way he communicates with me alot. So they look at me and I said ok, there he is. My alarm clock is not set! Go look at it! They would not go without me! LOL We got in there and as I said the alarm clock was not set!
I guess they were on a roll about communicating with him. Well, the boyfriend is still a skeptic, so I was sitting at the table wishing his phone would ring and scare the crap out of him. All of a sudden I hear a phone ring - but it's not any of ours. We guessed it must have been the tv in the other room. So I said - "Oh well, I asked him to do "boyfriends" phone so it would convince him. Then one of the girls said, "oh come on just do something funny!" Two seconds later, my phone rings! OMG the look of terror on her face and she screamed so loud I'm surprised she didnt wake up the others in the house. And of course her screaming caused the other one to scream as a reaction.! I was laughing so hard I had tears streaming down my face!
As I try to type this I am beginning to cry with laughter again. I can just picture her face. I'm thinking to myself - Oh yeah, she's not scared but the look of terror on her face was unbelievable! I was laughing so hard when I answered the phone, my husband could not understand what I was saying. Oh I needed that laugh!
I think that will be one of those memories they will have forever - which will be spoken of for years to come! I know it's probably one of those - you had to be there moments - but I am sure glad I was there!
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Not Sure Where to Start or Where I Left Off!
My life has been crazy for quite a while - going in so many directions. It has caused me to reflect on numerous events and thoughts throughout my life.
We have been living in this house for about 9 years gosh this month! It appears we must sell our home due to our unforseen financial situation. Yes it is difficult but the house is a material object - and family is more important than things. My beliefs tell me things happen for a reason, I just can't seem to figure out why. Our financial situtation is due to my husband's partner - not being honest and straight forward. So a lesson learned - do not go into partnerships! All people are not as they want you to believe.
We decided it would be easier to sell our home if most of our items were already packed and out of the way. I began packing up all my collections and papers I have accumulated in my life. Boy, it's amazing what I have come across in this sort of cleansing of my home. It seemed everytime I opened a box or drawer - there was something related to my psychic journey! I look at the dates on notes of visions or dreams and wow I really have been on this journey my entire life!
My experiences and gifts have been going in full force for gosh longer then I realized myself, living it everyday you become accustomed to it. Reflecting back with these notes and items it really brings things to light. Wow - this is the path I was to take - but I still don't understand what I am to do with these gifts.
As I plundered through - I kept coming to a name and phone number of an old friend. I really was unsure if this person was still alive - since she was an older woman when I met her in 1995! I haven't seen her in 10+ years! But I grabbed my phone and dialed the number - she picked up! She is alive and well and still living in the same place! WOW.
Of course, with the direction I have been heading, yes she is a psychic! LOL She remembered me and we chatted for a few minutes. It was amamzing all she remembered about me? Guess not if you think about it - but I was still amazed. We scheduled a time to meet the next week. I was so excited I went and told my husband. As I told him - he was out packing the garage - he said wait a second I have David's readings (my now deceased Brother in Law)! Yes and one was done by my friend I just called!
A few minutes after that - life hit us hard again??? I just can not understand what is going on in my universe! We received a phone call that my husband's best friend (whom my children call uncle) had been shot 3 times and airlifted to a trauma center 4 hours away from us.
I am not sure which direction I am going in anymore. These are just a couple examples of my life - I should write a book. The only problem is no one would believe it was true! All these problems in one way or another lead to ONE person, the partner! I just don't understand WHY? Yes even the shooting is related. Its a long story - that is why I say a book!
I did come back in town and did see my friend. I will write another post shortly and let you know how our connection went!
We have been living in this house for about 9 years gosh this month! It appears we must sell our home due to our unforseen financial situation. Yes it is difficult but the house is a material object - and family is more important than things. My beliefs tell me things happen for a reason, I just can't seem to figure out why. Our financial situtation is due to my husband's partner - not being honest and straight forward. So a lesson learned - do not go into partnerships! All people are not as they want you to believe.
We decided it would be easier to sell our home if most of our items were already packed and out of the way. I began packing up all my collections and papers I have accumulated in my life. Boy, it's amazing what I have come across in this sort of cleansing of my home. It seemed everytime I opened a box or drawer - there was something related to my psychic journey! I look at the dates on notes of visions or dreams and wow I really have been on this journey my entire life!
My experiences and gifts have been going in full force for gosh longer then I realized myself, living it everyday you become accustomed to it. Reflecting back with these notes and items it really brings things to light. Wow - this is the path I was to take - but I still don't understand what I am to do with these gifts.
As I plundered through - I kept coming to a name and phone number of an old friend. I really was unsure if this person was still alive - since she was an older woman when I met her in 1995! I haven't seen her in 10+ years! But I grabbed my phone and dialed the number - she picked up! She is alive and well and still living in the same place! WOW.
Of course, with the direction I have been heading, yes she is a psychic! LOL She remembered me and we chatted for a few minutes. It was amamzing all she remembered about me? Guess not if you think about it - but I was still amazed. We scheduled a time to meet the next week. I was so excited I went and told my husband. As I told him - he was out packing the garage - he said wait a second I have David's readings (my now deceased Brother in Law)! Yes and one was done by my friend I just called!
A few minutes after that - life hit us hard again??? I just can not understand what is going on in my universe! We received a phone call that my husband's best friend (whom my children call uncle) had been shot 3 times and airlifted to a trauma center 4 hours away from us.
I am not sure which direction I am going in anymore. These are just a couple examples of my life - I should write a book. The only problem is no one would believe it was true! All these problems in one way or another lead to ONE person, the partner! I just don't understand WHY? Yes even the shooting is related. Its a long story - that is why I say a book!
I did come back in town and did see my friend. I will write another post shortly and let you know how our connection went!
Monday, September 29, 2008
My Life Seems to be Imaging a TV Show Medium!
Oh my gosh! I woke up again thinking - I feel like the medium on the TV show, "Medium." I used to feel sorry for the husband whom would be woken up because his wife was having dream visions and the tossing and turning disturbed him. Now my husband and I are in the same situation.
Again last night I am tossing and turning - woke him up. Thank goodness he knows how I am, so he just asked what was going on. I gave him a brief explanation. This actually helps because many times after i receive something - I forget! He seems to remember what I said - but I don't tell him the whole thing, so the details still aren't there.
I wish I could be like the "medium" on TV - where I can actually remember everything that I am given! Maybe one day.
Again last night I am tossing and turning - woke him up. Thank goodness he knows how I am, so he just asked what was going on. I gave him a brief explanation. This actually helps because many times after i receive something - I forget! He seems to remember what I said - but I don't tell him the whole thing, so the details still aren't there.
I wish I could be like the "medium" on TV - where I can actually remember everything that I am given! Maybe one day.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
My Sister is an Artist
Gosh, I wish I had the talent of my sister! Kris is a very talented artist who always amazes me with her abilities. She recently sent me a picture of a painting she just did! Yes, I mean it in that she just finished it - but also in the way of - she can sit down and a few minutes later so to speak, has an amazing painting to show for it. I would have to sit for months and then not come up with anything but a stick figure! LOL Guess the artistic talent skipped me!
I have started using the picture as my photo image on a couple of sites I read and blog on! Yes, I did get her approval. Paintings are copyrighted material!
As many of my reader's know things have been kinda negative around me lately - as soon as I saw the painting - I thought how positive! I needed that. I hope you all feel the same positive energy I did when seeing it.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Understanding your Psychic Journey
Learning to understand the "gifts" I have been given has sent me in a different direction then some other gifted people - may be that is why it has taken me longer to develop my God given abilities. I've known I was different from many people, from what I consider an early age, but never knew how to learn, develop, or accept these differences.
I would go to the bookstore and look at the New Age section. I would ponder thru numerous books to see where I fit into this "New Age" thinking. Why was I being given information? I am just a regular person - just an average girl in an average life. What is the purpose and why me?As I browsed thru the books I would look for answers and understanding, but very rarely did I ever find anything to explain the answers. So many psychics have written books about how to enhance aspects of psychic development. Many of the books I placed back on the shelf, because I felt people just wanting to make a buck wrote them. They never explained how they themselves had accomplished a better understanding of their abilities from performing such exercises.
Over the years, I have purchased books, but my choices were made by my gut instinct. As I reflect back the books I did purchase seem to also explain the authors own experiences, in which I could relate.I consider my journey different from many others, in the way I learn or understand my "gifts."I'm not saying others are not right in their development - I'm just different. My differences may also be what others are going thru - they are just not spoken or written about as much. I believe the reason some of us take a different path is we do not comprehend or cannot place the importance to the "meaning" of certain things. The best way for me to explain this is to example Tarot Cards.
For years I have owned Tarot Cards. I searched and did purchase many books on the Tarot, but the books - to me - were very confusing and the information made no sense. Well, maybe they would make sense but they seemed unimportant to me. I tried and tried to get myself to learn the meanings - I became very frustrated with myself because even though I was so drawn to the "Tarot" I could not make myself learn even the basic of meanings. So why was I drawn to something this strongly. Then many years later I realized the Tarot Cards are to me, a physical item allowing me to express my psychic gifts. It was like I needed something tangible to say "ok your not crazy."I have had the same Tarot Cards for many many years! I cannot even tell you what deck it is! LOL Like I said the importance of such things doesn't matter to me. I have learned to look at the cards and certain things pop into my head. What could be important in one reading with a certain card can mean something totally different in another reading. I am probably some Tarot readers’ worst nightmare! Actually, that is not true every reader has their own way of reading and could care less what another reader says. But it just popped into my mind; my sense of humor does that sometimes. Very rarely do I do "Tarot Readings" and if I do I will either just give the information I am given without telling the person what the cards are - if online. The other way I have done it is to give the reading - as I see it. Then I provide the person with the card names and if they want to investigate what they mean - they can. But somehow I doubt those meanings will be beneficial to the person.
To me the "if this then that" in my psychic world does not apply with the general understanding of psychic information. That is why I say I have traveled a different path then many psychics I have had communications with. I respect all those that I speak with and a part of me wishes that I had the background knowledge they have acquired. I just can't seem to go there. I have to accept the path I am given and go forward. I have written this to hopefully help other psychics like myself not to get discourage because they cannot learn in the same aspect as other psychics. Be yourself and follow your gut - you will learn and grow from the information within yourself. Only choose aids that seem important to your journey!
I would go to the bookstore and look at the New Age section. I would ponder thru numerous books to see where I fit into this "New Age" thinking. Why was I being given information? I am just a regular person - just an average girl in an average life. What is the purpose and why me?As I browsed thru the books I would look for answers and understanding, but very rarely did I ever find anything to explain the answers. So many psychics have written books about how to enhance aspects of psychic development. Many of the books I placed back on the shelf, because I felt people just wanting to make a buck wrote them. They never explained how they themselves had accomplished a better understanding of their abilities from performing such exercises.
Over the years, I have purchased books, but my choices were made by my gut instinct. As I reflect back the books I did purchase seem to also explain the authors own experiences, in which I could relate.I consider my journey different from many others, in the way I learn or understand my "gifts."I'm not saying others are not right in their development - I'm just different. My differences may also be what others are going thru - they are just not spoken or written about as much. I believe the reason some of us take a different path is we do not comprehend or cannot place the importance to the "meaning" of certain things. The best way for me to explain this is to example Tarot Cards.
For years I have owned Tarot Cards. I searched and did purchase many books on the Tarot, but the books - to me - were very confusing and the information made no sense. Well, maybe they would make sense but they seemed unimportant to me. I tried and tried to get myself to learn the meanings - I became very frustrated with myself because even though I was so drawn to the "Tarot" I could not make myself learn even the basic of meanings. So why was I drawn to something this strongly. Then many years later I realized the Tarot Cards are to me, a physical item allowing me to express my psychic gifts. It was like I needed something tangible to say "ok your not crazy."I have had the same Tarot Cards for many many years! I cannot even tell you what deck it is! LOL Like I said the importance of such things doesn't matter to me. I have learned to look at the cards and certain things pop into my head. What could be important in one reading with a certain card can mean something totally different in another reading. I am probably some Tarot readers’ worst nightmare! Actually, that is not true every reader has their own way of reading and could care less what another reader says. But it just popped into my mind; my sense of humor does that sometimes. Very rarely do I do "Tarot Readings" and if I do I will either just give the information I am given without telling the person what the cards are - if online. The other way I have done it is to give the reading - as I see it. Then I provide the person with the card names and if they want to investigate what they mean - they can. But somehow I doubt those meanings will be beneficial to the person.
To me the "if this then that" in my psychic world does not apply with the general understanding of psychic information. That is why I say I have traveled a different path then many psychics I have had communications with. I respect all those that I speak with and a part of me wishes that I had the background knowledge they have acquired. I just can't seem to go there. I have to accept the path I am given and go forward. I have written this to hopefully help other psychics like myself not to get discourage because they cannot learn in the same aspect as other psychics. Be yourself and follow your gut - you will learn and grow from the information within yourself. Only choose aids that seem important to your journey!
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Another Lesson Learned in Psychic Interpretation
Interpretation of Psychic Information can be confusing in itself, but then add what you consider the definition of a reading, vision, note or warning to be. I forget not everyone knows me and therefore, everything I write effects others. I have been offering free readings on a site for about a year and yes I have a following, but I forgot there are always new people on the site who are not familiar with my readings.
I made an error when I put a note on a post. I said this is not a reading, which to me it was not. It was a note or maybe a warning to the individual to pay attention to something she had mentioned. It did not mean the information did not come to me - it just meant this was not really the information she was requesting be read. It was the only information I received and therefore she just needed to note the info incase it became relevant to her situation. Something she may not have realized could come into play in the future. Maybe it won't come about, I can only go by what I am given. I hope for her sake it never comes into play.
I have to look at this situation as a learning experience when dealing with my "gifts." I did apologize to the individual because after she responded I realized it was my error in labeling what I was given. Next time I think I will just type what I am given with no explanation as to what I consider the information to be. Then the person can decide what they feel the information is to them.
I made an error when I put a note on a post. I said this is not a reading, which to me it was not. It was a note or maybe a warning to the individual to pay attention to something she had mentioned. It did not mean the information did not come to me - it just meant this was not really the information she was requesting be read. It was the only information I received and therefore she just needed to note the info incase it became relevant to her situation. Something she may not have realized could come into play in the future. Maybe it won't come about, I can only go by what I am given. I hope for her sake it never comes into play.
I have to look at this situation as a learning experience when dealing with my "gifts." I did apologize to the individual because after she responded I realized it was my error in labeling what I was given. Next time I think I will just type what I am given with no explanation as to what I consider the information to be. Then the person can decide what they feel the information is to them.
Friday, September 5, 2008
I Had an Interesting Meditation
Meditating can help relieve stress on most days! LOL Today, I had an interesting meditation which may actually change my life. Not exactly change it but improve my thoughts. It has been an extremely difficult year in all aspects of my life - except one!
I realized that the area of my life that has not caused me stress is when I use my "gifts" to help people. Even though I may be experiencing enormous stress - I actually feel relief in some ways when I do a reading for someone and they feel better about their situation and decide to go forward with a positive attitude!
So, I am contemplating starting another Blog - and offering what I consider "psychic advice."
Not that I have millions of readers but I do a few followers and hope to expand. I think I will grab the blog name in a few minutes - if it's available. Won't name it now because I have to go check and see if I can get it first. LOL with my luck it will be taken!! Must keep my sense of humor!!!!
I realized that the area of my life that has not caused me stress is when I use my "gifts" to help people. Even though I may be experiencing enormous stress - I actually feel relief in some ways when I do a reading for someone and they feel better about their situation and decide to go forward with a positive attitude!
So, I am contemplating starting another Blog - and offering what I consider "psychic advice."
Not that I have millions of readers but I do a few followers and hope to expand. I think I will grab the blog name in a few minutes - if it's available. Won't name it now because I have to go check and see if I can get it first. LOL with my luck it will be taken!! Must keep my sense of humor!!!!
Monday, September 1, 2008
I'm more afraid of Life than Death
This realization came to me - maybe yesterday?
My life is such a mess in so many aspects, and then I thought, so many people speak of being afraid of death. I'm not afraid of death; I'm afraid of Life!
Don't get me wrong - I don't want to die. My family is the most important thing to me and to leave my children without a mother, my husband without a wife, or my parents without a daughter - No! But death seems like peace to me, for my beliefs tell me I chose this path for some reason and only in death will I completely understand WHY I would choose such a life!
I guess I just want answers.
Death means returning to a different aspect and not dealing with humans that have caused havoc in my life. No one other than my husband probably knows completely what we have had to deal with in this life, and what we continue to live. It is very scary out there in the world today! We have been bombarded with evil and negativity from so many people. Yet we always are there for others - we try to help everyone and be kind to people - so then why do people always hurt us? It just doesn't make sense. We seem to be a magnet for negative people meaning those who cheat, steal and lie, Why?
So, that is why Life is definitely more scary than Death!
My life is such a mess in so many aspects, and then I thought, so many people speak of being afraid of death. I'm not afraid of death; I'm afraid of Life!
Don't get me wrong - I don't want to die. My family is the most important thing to me and to leave my children without a mother, my husband without a wife, or my parents without a daughter - No! But death seems like peace to me, for my beliefs tell me I chose this path for some reason and only in death will I completely understand WHY I would choose such a life!
I guess I just want answers.
Death means returning to a different aspect and not dealing with humans that have caused havoc in my life. No one other than my husband probably knows completely what we have had to deal with in this life, and what we continue to live. It is very scary out there in the world today! We have been bombarded with evil and negativity from so many people. Yet we always are there for others - we try to help everyone and be kind to people - so then why do people always hurt us? It just doesn't make sense. We seem to be a magnet for negative people meaning those who cheat, steal and lie, Why?
So, that is why Life is definitely more scary than Death!
Sunday, August 31, 2008
How does a Psychic not Assume?
Not many people know I have "psychic gifts" except all you here online! LOL Many people think psychic gifts are great, but if they themselves do not possess such psychic gifts, they are unable to understand exactly how they come to you. So, I figure the last sentence there just confused at least half my readers! Sorry.
Interpreting information received psychically can be very confusing. I am experiencing one of those confused moments now. As I was trying to explain what I was trying to figure out to my sister, I came to realize I must not be the only psychic person this happens to. I used to really admire a famous psychic Sylvia Brown. Then it seemed she was always wrong - so much negativity spoken about her errors - but then it just hit me. What if she too is trying to interpret information and assuming her interpretation is correct. She then makes these predictions on interpretation of something she is shown. It is not that she might not really be psychic, it is she is assuming what she is given means what she initially thought from the picture she was shown.
How does a psychic not assume? I don't know the answer to this question. I know when I am giving a reading, I try to keep myself from doing such by trying to describe what I see instead of giving my assumption, because I don't know the people. But when I am given a sign for myself, in picture form, then how do I keep from assuming my interpretation is correct? Especially when the picture given is not anything I personally know about.
For instance, I ask for a sign the information I just received is actual. I am shown a picture of a presidential candidate for the 2008 election with a picture of a woman. (now you would need to know politics is not my thing, at all!) I don't keep up with politics at all. So, in my brain I assume, "OK, if he chooses this woman as his running mate then the information I was given, will happen"
But in reality did I assume that woman to be his running mate, or was it that he was considering her or a woman as his running mate, or was the woman shown somehow related to the election? How am I to know? This picture was given to me many months before he chose his running mate, and me not being political at all, did not even know when they would be picking running mates! So why was I being given this information as a sign when it is months away?
This confusion and revelation comes into play now because as some of you know McCain chose his running mate. Yes it was a woman - no it was not the woman I think I saw. But he did choose a woman, which I didn't think he would - but like I said I don't keep up with such things. I did do a little research today cause I'm confused. I did see some people had this woman in the running for VP, but he picked a different woman. So does it mean what I was given does not come to pass? Then why give me the information to begin with? And did I misinterpret the picture and maybe in actuality it was the opponents wife, I actually saw? If that was the case, then what now?
So the question I pose to everyone: "How does a Psychic not Assume" when given information thru pictures?
Interpreting information received psychically can be very confusing. I am experiencing one of those confused moments now. As I was trying to explain what I was trying to figure out to my sister, I came to realize I must not be the only psychic person this happens to. I used to really admire a famous psychic Sylvia Brown. Then it seemed she was always wrong - so much negativity spoken about her errors - but then it just hit me. What if she too is trying to interpret information and assuming her interpretation is correct. She then makes these predictions on interpretation of something she is shown. It is not that she might not really be psychic, it is she is assuming what she is given means what she initially thought from the picture she was shown.
How does a psychic not assume? I don't know the answer to this question. I know when I am giving a reading, I try to keep myself from doing such by trying to describe what I see instead of giving my assumption, because I don't know the people. But when I am given a sign for myself, in picture form, then how do I keep from assuming my interpretation is correct? Especially when the picture given is not anything I personally know about.
For instance, I ask for a sign the information I just received is actual. I am shown a picture of a presidential candidate for the 2008 election with a picture of a woman. (now you would need to know politics is not my thing, at all!) I don't keep up with politics at all. So, in my brain I assume, "OK, if he chooses this woman as his running mate then the information I was given, will happen"
But in reality did I assume that woman to be his running mate, or was it that he was considering her or a woman as his running mate, or was the woman shown somehow related to the election? How am I to know? This picture was given to me many months before he chose his running mate, and me not being political at all, did not even know when they would be picking running mates! So why was I being given this information as a sign when it is months away?
This confusion and revelation comes into play now because as some of you know McCain chose his running mate. Yes it was a woman - no it was not the woman I think I saw. But he did choose a woman, which I didn't think he would - but like I said I don't keep up with such things. I did do a little research today cause I'm confused. I did see some people had this woman in the running for VP, but he picked a different woman. So does it mean what I was given does not come to pass? Then why give me the information to begin with? And did I misinterpret the picture and maybe in actuality it was the opponents wife, I actually saw? If that was the case, then what now?
So the question I pose to everyone: "How does a Psychic not Assume" when given information thru pictures?
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Gosh I am still alive!
Things have been kinda crazy around here lately! But, we are all still breathing. We have food on the table - so at this point we continue to live.
Had a cup of coffee with Bart yesterday - for those of you that know me - he is my guide. I have been so stressed lately, hadn't had time to stop and meditate. Well, went pretty well - very informative in some aspects and confusing in others. It seems in a sense I am going in the right direction - even though life seems very upsetting. I am supposed to be learning these lessons to help me in the future. Gosh, lessons are hard sometimes. I am not sure why I choose to learn these, but only God knows. I guess when I go back to heaven, I will understand and hopefully have learned - so I don't have to repeat these lessons!! OMG
Had a cup of coffee with Bart yesterday - for those of you that know me - he is my guide. I have been so stressed lately, hadn't had time to stop and meditate. Well, went pretty well - very informative in some aspects and confusing in others. It seems in a sense I am going in the right direction - even though life seems very upsetting. I am supposed to be learning these lessons to help me in the future. Gosh, lessons are hard sometimes. I am not sure why I choose to learn these, but only God knows. I guess when I go back to heaven, I will understand and hopefully have learned - so I don't have to repeat these lessons!! OMG
Monday, July 7, 2008
The Life of an Empath
The life of an Empath can be very draining! Not sure if many of you know what an Empath is - but we feel others emotions and physical pain. I am still trying to understand all of it myself, as I live it! I had a few experiences now that tell me 100 % that I am an Empath. I have learned somewhat to protect myself from a lot of outside influences that effect me emotionally and physically, but some times it just sneaks up on me.
I think that the combination of being an Empath and a Medium make things a little more confusing. The reason being is that if a spirit tries to contact me I can also feel what they want me to feel. Last night around 10pm all of a sudden I got information (from where I don't know) about a suicide attempt involving a car, garage and carbon monoxide. The information came to me first, then I started getting a dull head ache and sick to my stomach.
I had looked at a picture from a reading request and was hoping that it was that person whom had already passed and not someone needing my help now! Unfortunately, it was not the person whom was already deceased, so now it is a waiting game to find out who or why I was getting this information. I hate these feelings when you just don't get enough information to help someone.
I guess I should feel good that I have not received any phone calls with bad news yet. I will continue to hope it was a spirit that will try to contact me again.
So everyone be nice to me today! The life of an Empath is not always easy.
I think that the combination of being an Empath and a Medium make things a little more confusing. The reason being is that if a spirit tries to contact me I can also feel what they want me to feel. Last night around 10pm all of a sudden I got information (from where I don't know) about a suicide attempt involving a car, garage and carbon monoxide. The information came to me first, then I started getting a dull head ache and sick to my stomach.
I had looked at a picture from a reading request and was hoping that it was that person whom had already passed and not someone needing my help now! Unfortunately, it was not the person whom was already deceased, so now it is a waiting game to find out who or why I was getting this information. I hate these feelings when you just don't get enough information to help someone.
I guess I should feel good that I have not received any phone calls with bad news yet. I will continue to hope it was a spirit that will try to contact me again.
So everyone be nice to me today! The life of an Empath is not always easy.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Wow! I even amazed Myself
I got a chance to do a couple of medium readings last night - actually no children around!
I doubted myself the whole time and drive myself crazy waiting for the feedback from the person who requested the readings. But I was unbelievably amazed when I did get the feedback on two readings a little while ago.
Both included the words "WOW" in their feedback. I'm taking that as a good sign. Of course they then explained the "WOW" I have to agree "WOW" is a good definition. Confirmation of the communications are amazing. To know that our loved ones can communicate with us once they have passed on is just an unbelievable experience, not only for the person I do the readings for, but for myself as the reader.
I know that there are many people out there that do not believe in any such communication, but if you live my life, you can not doubt it! I see it, I hear it, and I feel the communication with spirits. Do I sometimes doubt whether I am really doing this - well yes but then how do I know what I know about someone I have never met in this life time?? No one will ever ever convince me that there is not a life after death!
Oh Wow - I am so thankful for my gifts - Thank God for giving them to me so that I may give hope, happiness, love, and peace to the people who request readings.
I doubted myself the whole time and drive myself crazy waiting for the feedback from the person who requested the readings. But I was unbelievably amazed when I did get the feedback on two readings a little while ago.
Both included the words "WOW" in their feedback. I'm taking that as a good sign. Of course they then explained the "WOW" I have to agree "WOW" is a good definition. Confirmation of the communications are amazing. To know that our loved ones can communicate with us once they have passed on is just an unbelievable experience, not only for the person I do the readings for, but for myself as the reader.
I know that there are many people out there that do not believe in any such communication, but if you live my life, you can not doubt it! I see it, I hear it, and I feel the communication with spirits. Do I sometimes doubt whether I am really doing this - well yes but then how do I know what I know about someone I have never met in this life time?? No one will ever ever convince me that there is not a life after death!
Oh Wow - I am so thankful for my gifts - Thank God for giving them to me so that I may give hope, happiness, love, and peace to the people who request readings.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
O stop me my sarcastic side is about to come out!
OMG I can't help it! It just won't stop! I unfortunately have a very sarcastic side to me and it just gets to me sometimes and I have to let it out or it will get worse. Many of you know that I am a psychic photo reader and this has to do with people requesting free readings on a site I read on. I see requests over and over again by the same people sometimes and I have to control myself not to jump on and tell them that asking and asking isnt going to change their lives. It is only them that can do anyting about what is happening - their freewill can change the course they are on.
Or the ones that keep asking every hour or two for a pregnancy reading! Part of me wants to say what difference does it really make if its a boy or a girl???? It is what it is and it's not like you can change it! Enjoy that you are pregnant and feel blessed that you are having a child! Be happy with whatever you have. I have four girls and it never mattered to me whether I was having a boy or a girl!
Sorry I just had to get that out without hurting any persons feelings. I know some people just really want to know the sex of the child - to be somewhat sure ask your doctor for an ultrasound - but even those can be wrong! LOL Doctors are not God either.
Well I feel better now
Or the ones that keep asking every hour or two for a pregnancy reading! Part of me wants to say what difference does it really make if its a boy or a girl???? It is what it is and it's not like you can change it! Enjoy that you are pregnant and feel blessed that you are having a child! Be happy with whatever you have. I have four girls and it never mattered to me whether I was having a boy or a girl!
Sorry I just had to get that out without hurting any persons feelings. I know some people just really want to know the sex of the child - to be somewhat sure ask your doctor for an ultrasound - but even those can be wrong! LOL Doctors are not God either.
Well I feel better now
Monday, April 21, 2008
One of the Toughest Days of My Life
Saturday April 19, 2008 was probably one of the most difficult days in my life. I attended a funeral for a wonderful young lady, Kimberly Dawn Heacox Hamilton. She was only 27 years old, the youngest person’s funeral I have ever attended. I consider myself lucky in that I have not lost many people who are dear to me.
I remember the first day that I met Kimmie. She and her parents were soon to be our new neighbors. We sat on what would be our back porch and got to know each other. She had so much energy and spunk, and definitely not shy! Not long after we moved in her parents let us know that she had CF. I had never really known much about the disease, until they became like family to us. At that time they explained that her life expectancy would be that of a teenager. Oh how my heart broke with those words. I still remember thinking, how am I going to be able to handle the loss or someone so precious and young.
I was very thankful when we found out that they extended her life expectancy. As a teenager, she would go with my family to the beach and help me take care of my two young girls. We had such a wonderful time and memories that will never be forgotten. It gave my husband ant I the experience we were going to need when our girls became teenagers.
We all celebrated Kimmie’s 16th birthday together. She had a group of friends over and they played a number of silly games. We had a blast. As I look back at the person Kimmie was it amazes me. A teenager having us “old people” at her birthday party! Now that doesn’t happen too often. But we were all family. I can picture her smiling and laughing and just being Kimmie.
The sometimes rebellious girl decided to move up North! Oh my, that was very hard for her entire family, but she was determined to live her life as she wanted. She was forced to have many stays in the hospital, which would tear our hearts out, but she handled everything with determination and fight.
Kimmie, you will be dearly missed by so many people of all ages. You had the personality to make everyone feel they were loved and wanted in your life. Your strength, fight, and caring will live in our hearts forever.
Love you!
I remember the first day that I met Kimmie. She and her parents were soon to be our new neighbors. We sat on what would be our back porch and got to know each other. She had so much energy and spunk, and definitely not shy! Not long after we moved in her parents let us know that she had CF. I had never really known much about the disease, until they became like family to us. At that time they explained that her life expectancy would be that of a teenager. Oh how my heart broke with those words. I still remember thinking, how am I going to be able to handle the loss or someone so precious and young.
I was very thankful when we found out that they extended her life expectancy. As a teenager, she would go with my family to the beach and help me take care of my two young girls. We had such a wonderful time and memories that will never be forgotten. It gave my husband ant I the experience we were going to need when our girls became teenagers.
We all celebrated Kimmie’s 16th birthday together. She had a group of friends over and they played a number of silly games. We had a blast. As I look back at the person Kimmie was it amazes me. A teenager having us “old people” at her birthday party! Now that doesn’t happen too often. But we were all family. I can picture her smiling and laughing and just being Kimmie.
The sometimes rebellious girl decided to move up North! Oh my, that was very hard for her entire family, but she was determined to live her life as she wanted. She was forced to have many stays in the hospital, which would tear our hearts out, but she handled everything with determination and fight.
Kimmie, you will be dearly missed by so many people of all ages. You had the personality to make everyone feel they were loved and wanted in your life. Your strength, fight, and caring will live in our hearts forever.
Love you!
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